vrcanaries Chapter 506 My Regret
Chapter 506 My Regret
The emperor's attitude made the Crown Princess suddenly understand that the queen's beauty in the royal garden that day, as well as her confidence and brilliance from the bottom of her heart, were all due to the favor of her husband. Her eyes were black and white, sparkling, all because of the emperor's exclusive favor.
The Crown Princess herself is so cautious and self-disciplined, afraid of saying or doing something wrong, because the Crown Prince does not favor her that much.
At this moment, the Crown Princess felt a deep sense of envy, jealousy, and yearning. Her eyes gleamed with a fierce brilliance. In this lifetime, she must live like Lan Qingwu! She was already the Crown Princess, and would one day be the Empress. She wanted the Crown Prince to treat her like the Emperor Shenwu treated Lan Qingwu! Only then would she be worthy of her unworthy and noble throne!
Lan Qingwu had fallen asleep again in the dormitory. When she fully woke up, she had completely forgotten the few words she had said to Emperor Shenwu in her drowsy state while she was sick.
That was a fear and knot deep within Lan Qingwu's heart. Now that she was with the Emperor Shenwu and her three children were safe and sound by her side, Lan Qingwu would never think about the despair and fear she felt back then.
Unexpectedly, this illness brought back the psychological trauma and shadows of her old years.
After Lan Qingwu woke up, Emperor Shenwu found that she had completely forgotten about this matter. She just smiled weakly and asked about the children and what happened in the palace. She did not mention the delirium when she was seriously ill.
Emperor Shenwu felt as if he had returned to the past, feeling heavy and helpless. He finally faced his past self – he, Zhou Xuheng, had chosen all those who followed him, trusted him, and relied on him, but only gave up Lan Qingwu!
Yes! He gave up on Lan Qingwu back then, when she was unwilling to wait! Didn't he know the situation Lan Qingwu was facing back then? Didn't he know that Lan Qingwu was about to turn fifteen? No, he knew! He knew it clearly!
Even so, Emperor Shenwu was unwilling to give up after being appointed as the crown prince. He had been silently watching and gazing at Lan Qingwu from afar.
He participated in all the pain and struggles that Lan Qingwu experienced back then. Emperor Shenwu finally understood that the five-year separation did not truly bring relief or end to the hearts of both of them!
And those five years, the five years when he was not with Lan Qingwu, have always been the biggest regret of Emperor Shenwu over the years.
The Shenwu Emperor gazed at Lan Qingwu's calm face for a long time. "Ruoruo, haven't you forgotten? The five years I spent without you are also my deepest regret!"
Emperor Shenwu felt regretful, but even more guilty. When he was young, he was arrogant and cold, and did not dare to speak out easily to express his regret and guilt. He always thought that he would slowly compensate Lan Qingwu, but he did not expect that some wounds could not be healed. Some scars seemed to have healed, but in fact, the inside was still scarred.
When Lan Qingwu slowly recovered, Concubine Jiang brought several high-ranking concubines to Fengqi Palace to pay their respects.
Lan Qingwu half leaned on the bed, with a light and luxurious gauze hanging down, "Don't be so polite, come, please take a seat!"
Concubine Jiang and others sat down one by one.
Lan Qingwu said, "Thank you all for your hard work these days! I'm really tired of you all because of my illness!"
At this moment, several palace maids carrying trays entered the hall one after another, forming two rows and bowing. Lan Qingwu said, "You can take these things back to enjoy them, or give them to others."
Concubine Jiang and others hurriedly expressed their gratitude.
Lan Qingwu continued, "Noble Consort Jiang, I know you're worried about the Second Prince and his wife, but matters of the heart cannot be forced. It's just that their destiny hasn't arrived yet. This is a letter from me personally. You can have the Second Prince and his wife take this letter to the abbot of Guo'an Temple and seek out Master Kunnu. Master Kunnu will be able to resolve their doubts."
Concubine Jiang's eyes lit up. She had heard that the abbot of Guo'an Temple, Master Kunyan, and his two disciples had a close relationship with the Empress. His disciple, Master Buyu, even discussed ancient and modern times with the Empress and studied Buddhism. She had no shortage of gold and silver jewelry and a decent status, but she had been anxious and angry about her son and daughter-in-law's pregnancy in the past six months.
Although Concubine Jiang knew that being impatient would not help, she had to take it seriously as she was in the royal family. This letter from the Queen Mother touched her heart.
Concubine Jiang's smile was much more sincere than before, "Thank you, Your Majesty, for your trouble!"
Concubine Wan looked on eagerly but didn't dare to say anything. Ever since the birth of the prince, she felt that she was several steps inferior to the empress, and she didn't dare to make any extra requests.
Lan Qingwu turned to Concubine Wan and said, "The eldest prince's wife has made great contributions to the royal family and gave birth to your majesty's first grandson. The child is weak. I have also written a letter to you. Master Kunlun will prepare a gift for the child."
Wan Fei was thrilled upon hearing this. This was Master Kun Ku, the abbot of the First Imperial Temple in Dasheng. He was of the same generation as the Shenwu Emperor's grandfather and a close friend of the late emperor. The Shenwu Emperor himself held Master Kun Ku in high esteem. If she could obtain Master Kun Ku's amulet, it would be a boon for her grandson.
Concubine Wan also hurriedly thanked the Queen, and couldn't help but sigh in her heart at the Queen's generosity. This favor is not easy to repay.