vrcanaries Chapter 179 They were already mutually attracted
Chapter 179 They were already mutually attracted
Although Yan Huai had been narrating his experiences from an outsider's perspective, he didn't realize that sometimes he would unconsciously let his emotions get into it. Zhang Qiling could hear the bewilderment, confusion, and self-blame that were inadvertently revealed in his words.
There was a time when Yan Huai wasn't like this...
Zhang Qiling pursed her lips, once again truly feeling that Yan Huai had really changed... but some things hadn't changed either, which was contradictory yet very reasonable.
Anyway, he wanted to do something.
The warm blanket gently brushed against the body, half of it falling onto the other person.
Yan Huai didn't feel cold at first, but after feeling the warmth approaching, he suddenly started trembling from the bottom of his heart. This trembling was uncontrollable and still reached his throat, making him sound like he was choking when he spoke.
"Brother... Zhang Qiling..."
The tender, dependent murmurs dissipated in the wind, causing Zhang Qiling's heart to clench.
"During those two times you were unconscious, my first reaction wasn't to get away from you, but to find a way to have you, to bind you to me forever and completely... I'm sorry..."
"It's not that I don't want someone by my side to face the past with me, but when I think that person is you, I can't bear to part with you..."
"Yan Huai, who was once full of malice and suspicion, ended up almost losing his soul. And Yan Huai, who was completely oblivious to the ugliness of the world, ended up with nothing. Now Yan Huai is afraid again. He is afraid that even if he gives his life, he won't be able to get Zhang Qiling. But he still wants to try, even if in the end he really can't get her, it doesn't matter..."
Zhang Qiling was repeatedly struck by the humility and pleading in Yan Huai's words. He no longer wanted to maintain his silent listening, so he spoke up, earnestly breaking the silence.
"I didn't reject you, nor did I leave you. I'm still here, while you've already moved on."
The words, imbued with flesh and blood, were like a rope hanging down a cliff, winding and pulling Yan Huai, who was tumbling down the rock face, back up, both soothing his emotions and relieving his physical exhaustion.
Zhang Qiling was the one who lowered the rope.
"Don't you blame me?"
"I've never blamed you." Never.
"Do you still like me now?"
A hint of helplessness flashed in Zhang Qiling's eyes. He felt that he had never been discreet in his behavior, perhaps because this level was not enough for Yan Huai.
Thinking of this, Zhang Qiling's Adam's apple bobbed slightly, and he expressed his feelings of liking verbally for the first time: "I like it."
How does it compare to before?
"..." What, there's another twist?
Zhang Qiling met Yan Huai's eager eyes and, as if to compromise, suppressed her pounding heart and unnatural shame: "More than before."
"You've never liked me like this before?" Yan Huai's pupils constricted slightly, as if he couldn't accept it, and also contained deep doubt.
Binding a contract of shared fate is tantamount to taking advantage of someone in distress. Even with an additional layer of soul connection, Zhang Qiling's feelings for her should be more complicated. How could she like her more than before?
Could it be that she learned something about her past from Liu the Hunter and felt sorry for herself?
Seeing Yan Huai lost in his own brainstorming, Zhang Qiling fell silent. He couldn't keep up with Yan Huai's train of thought and felt that saying more would only make things worse. So he pulled the blanket over Yan Huai's eyes, interrupting the latter's thoughts.
"go to bed!"
With the question still unanswered, how could Yan Huai possibly sleep!
Zhang Qiling originally wanted to pretend to close her eyes and rest, and then explain to Yan Huai after thinking about how to answer. However, the expectant gaze so close to her was too strong, and Zhang Qiling broke down after only half a minute.
He reopened his eyes, feeling a headache coming on, and also suspecting that the 60,000-year-old man in front of him was faking his age...
"Liking something increases gradually, without any random reasons."
Every time Yan Huai appeared, he gave Zhang Qiling a strange feeling—this person seemed to have been born for him, came for him, and was the only one he loved. And he felt the same way, so from the very beginning, what he gave was more than just his heart and attention.
Zhang Qiling thought to himself that even without those twists and turns, without the bond of shared joys and sorrows, he would still fall in love with Yan Huai, just as Yan Huai would fall in love with him. The contract was merely an addition of psychological comfort to his emotional bond.
Before this, someone's frankness and enthusiasm made him feel like a kite string. But after this, the kite string got shorter and shorter until someone flying the kite touched him completely, cherishing him while being unwilling to let him fly, yet giving him stability. How could he not be happy?
They were attracted to each other from the start...