vrcanaries Chapter 185 Love and Concern
Chapter 185 Love and Concern
As if by some strange coincidence, Yan Xizhao actually went outing with these patients. That's right, it was early in the morning. Yan Xizhao had never had a good night's sleep since the incubation period began, and he had almost stayed up all night that day, so he rushed here early in the morning.
"Girl, you are so beautiful!"
A very friendly elder sister looked at Yan Xizhao with admiration.
"Haha, you don't know me yet? I'm Sister Hao!"
It turned out that she was Sister Hao. The contact information given by Song Chunlai was hers. She was also the group leader of the local patient group.
"Yes, sister looks prettier than some celebrities! But you don't look very good and have dark circles under your eyes. Sister, why don't you wear makeup?"
A girl of college age flashed to Yan Xizhao's side, looked her up and down with the same kindness in her eyes, and spoke crisply.
Makeup? What a strange word. It seems like the last time I put on makeup was a lifetime ago.
Ever since her accident, she has been too lazy to even wash her face, let alone put on makeup?
"Sister, I know you're in a bad mood, but beautiful makeup can make people feel better! Especially with a pretty face like yours, if I were you, I would dress up every day and wake up with a smile in my dreams!"
The little girl loves to talk and chatters endlessly.
Sister Hao's smile widened as well. "Xiao Xin is right. No matter what happens, life has to go on. It's a day of crying and a day of laughing. Why not make yourself happier?"
Yan Xizhao was very surprised. She found that these patients looked surprisingly normal. Not only that, they were also very talkative and loved to laugh.
This... is too incredible.
Perhaps Yan Xizhao's expression was too obvious, Sister Hao smiled knowingly.
"I know what you're thinking. You've just been diagnosed, so this mentality is normal. Everyone has gone through this. But you're different from us. Doctor Song has told me about your situation. You have a good job, you're excellent, and you're so beautiful. Your life was originally smooth sailing, but suddenly this happened. You must have been hit harder than others. It's like falling from heaven into the abyss, and you can't accept it for a while. We all understand you!"
Understand me? Finally someone can understand me. Yan Xizhao's eyes were slightly moist, and a warm current flowed into her cold heart.
"Sister Hao, can you tell me how you got here? How did you manage to be like this now..."
Yan Xizhao didn't know how to express it. Sister Hao smiled gently, "Is it as normal as it is now?"
"It's a long story. I have to start with how I got the disease. My family was not well off at the time, so in order to save some money, I went to a small clinic with no registration number for infusion, and that's when I got the disease. I really regretted it so much at the time..."
"I felt that life was hopeless and I thought of all kinds of extreme methods. But when I thought about my son being without a mother, all those thoughts vanished. My son is my concern. I not only want to survive, but I also want to live longer..."
Sister Hao smiled widely, "I want to see my son take the college entrance exam!"
Yan Xizhao felt as if a small knife was being pulled at his heart, causing him to feel a dull pain and sadness.
"And the girl named Xiaoxin just now, she is only 20 years old this year, the age to go to college. Because she was too naive when she first entered college, she met the wrong person. Her so-called boyfriend was a habitual criminal who specifically harmed female students like her who were not very experienced in the world. Xiaoxin was infected at that time..."
"After the school's physical examination, Xiaoxin had to drop out. When Xiaoxin's parents found out, they were heartbroken. I don't know how Xiaoxin managed to get through it. Maybe she wanted to cheer up for her parents. Now Xiaoxin can't go to school or work, but she is very talented. She often publishes articles in magazines and forums, or writes film reviews, and earns a lot of money. Anyway, ever since I met her, she has been very optimistic and loves life more than other children!"
Seeing Yan Xizhao seemed to be lost in thought, Sister Hao advised her earnestly.
"Xiao Yan, I know you are going through the most difficult time right now, but you have to believe that the human spirit is infinite. No matter what hardships you encounter, you can never defeat your spirit. Your current confusion and helplessness is only temporary. It's only a matter of time before you stand up again!"
"Perhaps you can try to focus on something you love, or think about what you care about, and you will get used to it before you know it. Medicine is developing so fast now. As long as we treat scientifically and take good care of ourselves, there will definitely be a lot of time and a lot of things we can do. You are a medical student, so you should understand this better than me~"
That night, Yan Xizhao tossed and turned in bed. Sister Hao was worried about her son, and Xiaoxin was worried about her parents. So what was she worried about?
Yan Xizhao has no children, and her parents died in a car accident when she was just an adult. Who can a homeless person care about?
Her connection with this world is so shallow that only herself is left.
As for what she likes? She used to love beauty and dressing up, but after going through so many twists and turns, she no longer loves those things. What else can arouse her interest?
Yan Xizhao thought about it for a long time but could not come up with an answer, but there was one thing that Qin Xi agreed with. As a former medical worker, medicine is developing at an astonishing speed and new drugs are being developed in an endless stream. As long as timely and standardized treatment is received and one takes good care of oneself, one will be able to live longer than imagined.
Since you can’t think of it at the moment, just live well and take more time to think about it slowly.
It is said that a long illness makes one a doctor. Although Yan Xizhao has not been ill for long, she has already made the plan to become a doctor after suffering from the illness for a long time.
She consulted a lot of medical literature on AIDS and bought professional medical textbooks to study. When she encountered something she didn't understand, she consulted her old classmate Song Chunlai during follow-up visits. She found that Song Chunlai was very patient, and his explanations were detailed and thoughtful, which made her feel like she was in spring breeze.
Yan Xizhao is very happy for Song Chunlai because he has become a good doctor who truly cares about his patients. He has realized his own value, but what about Yan Xizhao herself? Whenever it is late at night, she will still be confused.
But as time goes by, Yan Xizhao is slowly opening up. She will build a team with her fellow patients. These patients are like comrades-in-arms, with more sincere feelings and closer connections. Yan Xizhao does not feel lonely when she is with them.
Yan Xizhao now likes to go to the hospital to communicate and learn with Song Chunlai. Because of her expertise and fearlessness of the virus, she is the perfect person to be a caregiver for critically ill patients.
There, she always met some new patients, who were just like her, broken, confused and at a loss.
At this time, Yan Xizhao will use his professional knowledge and experience to provide them with physical and psychological help, help them meet more new patients, get out of the haze and rebuild themselves.
Gradually, Yan Xizhao discovered that helping these people often brought her great happiness.
Perhaps what Yan Xizhao truly loves is life!